Sunday, November 8, 2009

Art Every Day Month, Nov 8 & 9: full shots of paintings plus more sketches

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Spiky heads prevailed...


More Kabuki sketches...

I think the one below was in the blog previously, but just as unfinished sketch.
Decided to finish and watercolor wash her.
Hawk got full shots of the Kabuki paintings for me, too, this weekend.
You can click to see them a bit bigger... what do you all think?
Like the sliver of panel of them I scanned better?
Or do you like the full context of the whole canvas?
You can finally see how I'm using my hand-carved stamp to make signature hand for each of the Kabuki canvas pieces. It's been an interesting experiment to make myself include it in each piece. We'll see if that keeps up! :)
miracles!
k-

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Art Every Day Month, for Nov 7th: Faces and an A-ha!

Art Every Day Month, for Nov 7th:
Faces and an A-ha!

While scanning my sketchbook drawings tonight in prep for sharing as entries for Art Every Day Month, I had a huge A-ha!

Some of you know I've been working toward 1,000 Faces since 2007. At the beginning of 2009, I was very close to having them all. About half of them were physical art, half were digital art. Then my computer and back up fried with virus. And I lost 498 of the digital piece entirely. I was disheartened and somewhat put off on the digital side of things. But with the help of Wreck This Journal and The Next Chapter bloggers bookclub, I dove into the physical side with a vengeance.

Now whenever I do a digital piece and save -- or a physical piece and scan -- I always number the face pieces because I'm tracking for this project. Well tonight, scanning for AEDM, this piece you see to the left was number 983. I'm back to the number I was at before losing everything!

I know, numbers aren't everything. It's more about the process. And honestly, in the trek since the losses, I've had several epiphany moments when I realized that getting to the number 1,000 would just be the FIRST 1,000. There are another thousand. And another thousand after that. And after that. Until the day I drop dead, I hope! [Note to self: put in living will that if incapacitated to the point of not being able to make any art in any form, then have them pull the plug!!]
Anyway, the even bigger A-ha is that I think with making art every day this month for our AEDM celebration here -- well, I think I'm going to hit my 1,000 mark with you all!!! Leah, can't tell you how perfect that seems to me as you were one of the first heARTists I met online blogging -- and your Moon Under Water has hung next to my desk, inspiring me all this time! What a cool bit of synchronicity to come into the first 1,000 in the midst of AEDM!
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Okay, so today's sharings:

The top most left, full color piece - this is actually just a partial of a full canvas. As I mentioned in a previous post, my scanner is too small to capture the whole thing. I'll get Hawk to photo the full canvases this weekend maybe. In the meantime, this partial is the latest in the Kabuki series and my first attempt at the more feminine, ghost character. I was uncertain as I layered the canvas how much I would end up liking the colors, textures, patterns. And when I drew her, I didn't like the way her arms are at all... but what you can't see is angled of the far left of this sliver scan, is a disembodied hand -- the same hand I've used to signature the other Kabuki color paintings I posted yesterday. Somehow, that addition really pulled the canvas together for me. Anyway, will show you that in full as soon as Hawk snags pics for me!

Then the two centered b&w line drawing pages above - these are just scans out of my sketchbook as I play with integrating the idea of Kabuki with my GRRRLS series themes -- and beginning to look at the Kabuki Ghost character in particular. I may take these into digital canvas and paint? Or maybe do print, acrylic transfer, and paint on canvas or wood? Or they may end up just being reference for totally different canvas piece I do from scratch? I don't know yet.

Then this one:
This piece is actually one I did a couple months ago when we were making our "This Is Not A Review" film about Keri Smith's This Is Not A Book piece. I was drawing up different masked faces that were looking up -- aim was to use them as title shots for the "This has been a MotherHenna.com production" blurb. But I just never got them scanned. I'll share a few more this month along the way. I seem to be over the obsession with the masks at the moment. Can't help but wonder if that was just a Halloween bug that got me back in September and played out till just before Halloween when I caught the Kabuki bug. ?? Maybe. But again, who knows? I may return to masks later. Maybe a series of the Kabuki Ghost in mask as she tries to cross worlds!? Hmmmmmm....

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So that's today's AEDM shares! Many thanks to all of you who have been stopping by to visit. I'm doing my best to surf around and answer your comments on your blogs, but I have also been posting some responses here in context of comments here. Whatever the case, just wanted to say thank you and this is so much fun to be making art every single day with all of you!!

A freebie for you as thank you:
Saw one visitor was just getting interested in henna art. Maybe there are others of you out there? We have a free eBook on the MotherHenna.com website, an anthology of articles about "All Things Henna" -- click over and snag it if you like:

It's about half way down the page under the header "eBooks from..." & you can right mouse click (or if on a MAC ctrl + click) to download/save copy to your local computer.

Happy Art Making to y'all!
Miracles!
k-

Friday, November 6, 2009

Quick Day of the Dead Artists Collaboration Update!

Quick update for Day of the Dead artists collaboration:

Boxes were mailed out November 4th!

Unfortunately, it looks like the post has entirely lost Pam's cards, so her piece isn't in the boxes afterall. Total bummer. Pam, I kept your box -- if the cards show up here in a week or two, then at least I can mail them back to you. If they show up on your end, let me know. I'd like to snag at least one for the exhibit next year!

Nancy, I need your mailing addy -- em me!

Lynndee & Shelley, can I meet up with y'all next week to hand off in person?

If you haven't gotten your eBook yet, snag the free eBook of all Hawk's photos of your art + artist bios/statements:

Click here! (you can right mouse click OR if on a MAC ctrl + click to "Save As" or "Save Link As" so you get your own copy on your computer!)

Note: eBook is almost 20MB big even though I've extremely compressed it.
Did not want to compress more because I wanted you all to see the detail as much as possible.
Be patient with download as it is worth the wait!

Thanks everyone!
miracles,
k-

More Kabuki... art every day month

These are my two for days 5 and 6 of Art Every Day Month ... though I have to be honest: 1) these are only small segments of larger canvases, but they are too big for my scanner. I'll get Hawk to photo eventually. And 2) these were actually started a week ago...they are my art for days 5 and 6 because I just managed to finish and scan them on these days.
I have done some other sketches these couple days -- and will probably do a few more today -- for my whole stupa offering to O-Iwa-San. But I don't feel like scanning those to share just yet. Will do an entry one of the days this month to share the concept to creation of it maybe... Thinking probably for most of this month, I'll be doing stuff one day and then scanning/sharing another day. Can't seem to do it all in one day :) Oh well, guess whatever ways we play are just the ways that we play for AEDM!

How are you all coming along with your heART playing for AEDM?

Miracles,
k-

Joy Diet: Play...I've forgotten how...

The Joy Diet: Play
for the next chapter bloggers bookclub

Well, this week sucked.

The writing on the little watercolor left says, "She went down to get water & lost herself on the way."

This whole week has been lost in that feeling. So I laughed out-freaking-loud when I got to Martha's bit in this chapter about "Flow like water."

I have so NOT been flowing like water. I've been rigid and annoyed and downright depressed. Sick to death already of the limited amount of light each day. The cold is getting to me already. My friend Meko came to visit from Hawaii and I cannot tell you how much it took to not jump in his boot and kick along back for the duration.

At one point, Hawk pointed out all the fun heART I've got around the house these days, how creative I've been, how many paintings and drawings and new ideas seem to be bubbling. You know what my response was? "Who gives a shit when none of this makes the ends meet STILL and in fact, at this point, even doing the shit work we hate isn't paying the bills either!?"

Wow. That is pretty far from water flowing. Poor Hawk. He was being pelted with my hail the size of golf balls!

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What to do? Go back to the beginning.

DO NOTHING.

Could not find the Zen place to do it the way Martha sets us out to do it. Instead I slept. And slept and slept. Well, not really. I slept at odd hours. I woke and did whatever I was doing at odd hours. Just sort of out of sync with the world.

I chatted with a friend who pointed out that this, too, is part of it. She reflected for me that she could see I was clearly on my path. Did I feel I was on my path? Well, yes. I am. I know I am. Well, she asked, "Then what would be point of getting off the path at this point? Just stay on it."

Guess the frustration is akin to this:

You know when you hear a piece of music that is clearly the Higher Power coming through that singer? You KNOW they are meant to sing.

Well, lately, I don't feel anything is clearly coming through anything I'm doing. I don't KNOW at all what I am meant to be doing. Being a bump on a log if you look at my week this week! I mean I know I am on the path of something, but I don't KNOW anything. Maybe that's the point.

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It was interesting to see Martha's prompt asking what you did on the infamous September 11th. I had to laugh. I know that seems wrong. But seriously, on September 11th we were homeless in our car, it was our first day on this island, where we landed to house sit for a friend while we tried to figure out how to NOT be homeless anymore. What did I do that day?

Sat with friends. Wrote. Doodled while the police at the ferry dock searched our car because my Hawk looks like he looks. Got pissed off. Wondered at everyone else's wonder about death. I mean, I'm sorry, but I had been living with the bomb that went off in my womb two years prior that killed my son. So I was walking around thinking, "Hm? Finally the world around me is getting a fucking clue about the reality of death, dying, grief." And while the "world" thinks I'm a freak for honoring my dead kid's birthday each year -- coz you know, I should be over it, and if you keep on like this you are "complicated grief" case, and all the bullshit. THAT SAME WORLD does huge memorial events every year on September 11th. And that is perfectly fine. Need. Important.

And it is. Of course. The people who had loved ones die on Sept 11th are the same as me. I am them. They are me. Of course.

But reading Martha's prompt about the Sept 11th question being a short cut to finding what you are meant to do... well, okay. Does that mean I am called to rant and rave against injustice then? Maybe.

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Whatever the case, this week has just been one big stirring of the wasps' nest.

I feel disturbed. Riled up. Edgy.

I went down to get water & lost myself on the way.

So what the hell am I supposed to do to find my way to play?!

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Wish I had some clean lovely round up to this post.
I really don't.

Best I can do is put some music in my earbuds and let it wash over me.

Set up my blanket house and turn on the twinkly red and white christmas lights. A safe nest for play, a harbinger of how I will make it through the rain, cold, wind this winter.

Make heART. Even just allow my sucky art to just flow through!

Really touch base, hear the holy bells, get in touch with the present moment and figure out what the hell would be PLAY-FULL right now? :)


How about you all? Have you touched into your playful self?

miracles,
k-

*8 Saints & Sinners who have influenced me the most...

Magpie Girl is hosting a Saints & Sinners creative prompt today for her *8 Things series! She wants to know who you would put in a shrine of *8 people who have influenced you?

Me? Easy.

1. Dakota Jones. Though I would have liked to know how his full, long life would have influenced me, I am in awe of how much his short life and sudden death have influenced me.

2. Frida. Passion, courage, a life lived in heART no matter what. Her stillborn son. I get it.

3. Anais Nin. The Journals. The films, especially the weird and wacky art films, like the one where she's wearing the bird cage over her head. And her sense of heART in every moment. Also a stillborn child, or possibly aborted, depending on how you interpret the journals. But whatever the cause, she wrote with a bereaved woman's heart in the journals entries about her experience.

4. Venus of Willendorf. Finally. A Goddess who looks like me. Well, I guess that should be, finally a Goddess I look like. :) But you know what I mean.

5. Jizo-Sama. My reminder that we all are travelers. I imagine, not only all the children who have physically died, but also all the lost and wounded inner children of us living adults encompassed within the fold of his robes.

6. Billie Holiday. That she sang *through* so much pain. That she shared her heART for as long as she drew breath.

7. Charlie Bird Parker. When I learned in the Ken Burns' series "Jazz" that Bird endured the death of a child among all the other experiences of his life...well, his music and addictions made complete sense to me then. I understand the context of his heART now.

8. Huntress. I know. She's a comic book character. But the mythology of her story is part of my being. From first versions back in the day to grunge Seattle version where she hooked up with Canary in the Cap Hill florist shop, even to the bad TV version. I get her anger, her vengeance, her remorse, her impatience in this impatient world. I strive for patience, but I GET her impatience.

How about you? Who are the Saints & Sinners on your shrine?

Miracles,
k-

Thursday, November 5, 2009

One Minute Meditation... full moon Day of the Dead

Look up for once in your life! Boo!

Miracles,
k-

Kabuki more + This Is Not A Hat GRRRL...Art Every Day Month: Nov 5

Not much to say today.
Below is inside back cover of my Art House Coop sketchbook.
Below is the Kabuki of Questioning.
Below is Our Lady of This Is NOT A Hat.
miracles.
k-

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Art Every Day Month: days 3 and 4...more on kabuki ghosts

Another entry for
ART EVERY DAY MONTH
days 3 & 4

The Kabuki obsession continues here, and thanks to Kimberly Anne's comment on my last post (THANK YOU MUCH KIMBERLY!!!), I'm also finally on the trail of O-Iwa-San, the Kabuki Ghost that seems to have visited my musings recently.

First up today, the image left -- click image to see it larger size -- is the inside, front cover of my Art House Coop sketchbook. I had been hesitant to do the inside covers of the front and back covers of the sketchbook. Mostly it was because they aren't blank pages. This front cover has the card holder and card for the library card. The card you see there now is the card with direction for me as participant on it. But I imagine after I send it in for the exhibit and library collection, a card will go in there for indexing. So anyway, I wanted to do something around it or over it or incorporating it. So anyway, this is what I came up with. I'll have the back cover one to show you later.

And then I had been sketching, just b&w line drawings of the Kabuki faces, with that tilt and somewhat look that I seem to be carrying over from my GRRRRLS series. Decided I wanted to watercolor a few of them. Though I know red is a prominent color for Kabuki, I have also seen other colors on the actors. So I started researching a bit about the colors. Found this great story about Kabuki Make-up. About half way down the page, you'll find a table with information about colors, shades, meanings, and you'll see there that the light blue color is for coolness or calm. So this is what came from my musings on that idea:

Now, as to O-Iwa-San's ghost mythology. I'm finding lots more images now, and with her name and the name of the play Yotsuya Kaidan, it is easier to find information about the play, versions of it from centuries past all the way thru the modern day horror film, complete with special effects! Interestingly, the thing that caught me most about her, that fact that she carried her ghost baby with her, seems to be barely touched upon in most versions, especially the modern.

I did come across a CNN travel article about the two shrines and O-Iwa-San's gravesite saying that when productions of her story are done, the actors and director go there to make offerings, to ask for her blessing. At the gravesite, it is said that there is a sign saying O-Iwa_San will grant blessings to anyone who leaves a wooden stupa tablet made for her. And reading this made me think maybe I would look up what a wooden or paper or drawing of stupa might look like for her, you know, to make one dedicated to asking for her blessing as I explore her story in my art. And then I found a most interesting thing!

In researching what a stupa is, I discovered that it can be as simple as wooden tablet with characters written on it, but also can be as complex as an entire temple building. Even pagodas or cairns are a version of the stupa form. And then in one of the stupa sites, I found an illustration that gave great detail about the levels and elements of the temples you see in Buddhist tradition. The bottom three levels are made up of a square, circle, and triangle. When I was pregnant with Dakota, I dreamed of those shapes in a pile configuration, and I was told it was a Kota Lion. There have been many versions of it, but this is the one Hawk worked up 3D style for the KotaPress site:
Maybe I'm just making meaning of everything. But, heck, isn't that what an artist does? Make meaning of the muses that cross our consciousness!? Something about having Kota's symbol be the base of stupa form. Something about being told it was called a Kota Lion and then the Lion character is prominent in Kabuki plays. Something about O-Iwa-San's images of her with her baby ghost. Something about the Jizo temples and gardens where the baby ghosts can be seen peeking out of the folds of his robes. It was Jizo who sent me on the path of 1,000 Faces project. And when I lost half of them with the zapping of my computer in Spring, I hit upon the fact that I would just do another 1,000. And then reading that many quest to make 1,000 stupa structures as a way to enlightenment. Something about how I've been dreaming in a myth format since summer - see Magic Pea Myth I posted in August.

???

All of it feels like a pointer, indications for where this new series of pieces is going. I want to make a stupa offering to O-Iwa-San to ask for her blessing to write a new version of her myth. My version is something about the baby being ghost of a stillborn. The ghost mother being the part of the mother who also dies when her baby is stillborn. The ghost mother taking a quest to find Jizo who can protect and lead her baby the rest of the way into the afterworld. The ghost mother can't take the baby the whole way because the ghost part of the mother is only part of her -- there is another part of the woman who is still alive in the physical world, trying to figure out how to live again after her child's death.

I want to write the story in detail and do illustration for the story, too.
But I somehow feel that this all came from the glimpse I got of O-Iwa-San in my dream or snippet on the radio when I was waking the other day -- I can't say exactly where that first glimpse came from exactly. Anyway, since I feel it came from her -- and since a stupa offering is asked for to gain her blessing -- well, I guess that will be next in my series. Along with continuing to explore Kabuki and O-Iwa-San imagery in general.

We'll see what unfolds!
Miracles...
k-

Monday, November 2, 2009

I Suck Scratchpad...Art Every Day Month celebration

So in celebration of Art Every Day Month, I started by posting my latest Kabuki obsession yesterday. When I mentioned the challenge of Art Every Day, I heard back from a few with comments about how they couldn't imagine doing it, they just are not very creative, and how I am so talented to be doing this. So in the spirit of BREAKING MYTHS, I'm posting this entry for the second day of Art Every Day Month.

My aim here is to show you how very stinkin' much I SUCK TOO! And how, if you are willing to suck a LOT, then sucking can lead to not sucking so badly. But you have to be willing to totally SUCK-FEST first.

So the art you see in this post is sort of scratch pad suckingness from my journal. A few days ago, I had a dream or heard a snippet on the radio or something, about "Kabuki Ghosts," and when I woke, I began sketching the kind of Kabuki we all know very well. The theater guys. Red accents over powder white, flowing kimono, hands at odd angles. And the sketches turned into a couple of paintings.

But when I decided to do one of them with Blue color on the face instead of Red, I thought maybe I should GET A CLUE and actually research what the colors meant. In my research, I came to discover that the Kabuki GHOST is actually a completely different character than those I had been working with in my recent art. Kabuki Ghost is usually a woman, sometimes carrying a baby ghost with her. She has the paper white skin, too, but one eye is usually deformed, maybe falling out of her head. She has impossibly long, dark hair, sometimes falling out in tufts.

Well then.
So while I am continuing with my main Kabuki obsession, the GHOST is gnawing at my ankles. I try desperately to ignore her and NO! She will not give up. So I begin more research. I've found lots of images and these characteristic descriptions of the Kabuki Ghost, but NO CONTEXT. I don't know the context of her myth at all. Why the ghost baby? Is it her child? Did she kill herself after the baby died? Or is she a mystical creature that is blamed for stealing the child when it dies? WHAT?!!!

In the process of having no luck at all with context, I begin scratchpad sketching after finding maybe 1/2 a dozen different illustration styles of this Ghost. And would you look at these scratchpad pages?! THEY TOTALLY SUCK!!
And they look like horrid horrid copy cats of the illustrations I found. And I can't get the perspective of adult ghost to baby ghost right. And I start writing notes to myself on the page like, "SHIT!" And I throw my pen on the ground and generally complain to Hawk that I suck. And I keep going.
Eventually I do stumble upon an idea. Something that has elements of the Ghost, but also has my own sort of GRRRRLS twist to it. I move from the scratchpad to canvas, paint, ink, and all that jazz. I'm still working on that piece. I may share it later this month when it is done. If it turns out in a way that speaks what I need it to speak.

AND I know that piece is the first of many probably. AND the scratchpad sucking will continue around here for a while. I will keep looking at illustrations and researching for her myth -- if any of you know anything about Kabuki Ghost, PLEASE comment on this entry or email me via the MotherHenna.com website!!! Eventually, I'll come up with some version of her with baby hopefully, that will truly have my mark of GRRRRRL style and be true to the mythological elements.

Who knows?

Point is: If I don't keep sucking, I'll never get to anything! But if I do keep sucking, if I'm willing to lean into the suckingness, then the possibility remains that I might come up with something that doesn't suck.

So for everyone who thinks I'm sooooooooooo talented and for all those who think you cannot do Art Every Day because you aren't creative and for those who are doing it, but don't feel "good enough" (whatever that is), I say let's all go forth and SUCK-FEST together. Because really, in the end, we are all going to end up having AN EXPERIENCE of creativity. And that's the point. The Experience of Creativity. The end product, if it ends up being something you like, is just a bonus.

So lots of miracles to you for lovely lovely SUCKINGNESS!
Get inspired and then go make art! That's what it's all about...
k-

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